While I was away...

Assalamualaikum wbt..

I need to apologise as this blog was neglected for a very long time.  It may be haunted while I was away on maternity leave.. who knows? I feel that I shouldn't own a blog looking at the rate that this it is updated.. once in a blue moon that is.

I think you can guess the reason for the long hiatus. I was as busy as a bee handling a baby and an attention seeking toddler at home. At the same time trying to express to stock up my EBM for the future days that I'll be oncall as well as putting some effort to study for the up coming exam. I am really bad at multitasking and my stress level was up to the brink. There were nights that I teared up as I was just plain exhausted and depressed. 

A lot had happened since I gave birth to Hamzah. He just turned 2 months old yesterday and becoming more interactive with the surroundings. He smiles, vocalizes and he can hold his head stronger. Being a milk monster, of course he has become a big chubby baby with the weight of 6 kg. He is so heavy that I experienced back pain from carrying and rocking him all the time.

For the second baby, the challenge is totally different. Hamzah either experienced infantile colic (definition: crying for more than three hours per day, for more than three days per week, and for longer than three weeks in an infant who is well-fed and otherwise healthy) or just went through growth spurt. He just kept me baffled  with his constant crying and wailing especially at night. Worst experience: 6 hours of being cranky!! Not only was he distress, the whole family members (especially my father) went up the wall. I even second guessed  myself about my milk supply. Was he getting enough milk? I went all panicky and had to supplement him with my EBM a couple of times. Frankly, I feel that he was well fed as he was passing adequate poos and pees. 

Another possible reason is that he went through growth spurt. I read that babies who is going through this stage are usually more irritable than usual. Seriously, my mom keeps me sane. She helped me a lot in taking care of Hamzah, taking turns to hold and console him during his bouts of high pitch cries.

Alhamdulillah, he behaves rather well this week. I hope this bouts of tantrum doesn't last long... I don't know how my hubby will handle it on the days that I am away at work..

I have a lot to write especially on how Hana react with the new baby and about my deferred exam. Till next time...

Wassalam

Our new bundle of joy

Syukur Alhamdulillah

Everyone

Please meet my son

Hamzah Naqeeb Ahmad

Born on 23rd July 2013 at 0433Hr, 14th Ramadhan

at 40 weeks and 6 days

Birth weight 3.67kg

May he grow up to become a healthy boy and a good muslim

Ameen

It's okay

My dear baby boy, 

It's okay for you to come out now. Papa, Mama and Kakak Hana have been waiting to see your cute face for the last 39 weeks and 5 days. Do you know that Kakak has been kissing you every day without a miss? She surely loves you. You don't have to wait until 40 weeks to do so, though I know you and your sister are very much alike. 

Please, Mama is very anxious now. If possible, I do not want to go through cesarean section for the second time but then, I am also scared of failing to do a good job of pushing you out of the womb. Do not fret my boy, coz what's most important is both you and I are well and healthy.

I pray to Allah everyday that whatever the decision is, it is for the best. But you are most welcome to come out earlier okay. 

We'll definitely be waiting for you.

Hugs and kisses,
Mama

Final Wedding

Oh well.. these pictures were taken during my youngest brother and sister's wedding reception which was held at a hall in Putrajaya last month. Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly. My only regret was that we the siblings were too busy handling and entertaining the guests that we did not snap that many pictures of us. So sad...

I also remembered that I had to stand and walk for hours while had to carry this 4kg of excess baggage in my belly. As a result, I was really exhausted and left with 2 sore feet and backache the next day. Anything for my loved ones..

Eida & Johan with his mom, Eva..
all the way from Sweden

Sheeq and Adilah
Thankful that the bride's dress turned out well.
I was with her picking up the material and design

Papa gave a wonderful speech.
I shed few tears listening to him..

Papa and Mommy, still going strong

My eldest sister who is also the MC
melantak with Umar, the tallest nephew in the family

Hana with Uzair, her most favourite cousin

I looked fat, right?!

Abe and Cik Sya, perfect couple indeed

Love Cik Sya ad Zahra's dresses!!

I will miss organising this kind of event in the future. The next wedding in our faimily will be in probably 10 years time when my nephew and nieces decide to tie the knot. Oh my, I guess I'll be in my 40s then. Oh nooooo..

How's you Ramadhan?

Alhamdulillah, it went well for me so far. As a pregnant lady (still) in her third trimester, fasting is not a problem at all.

Well, my previous pregnancy, I was in labour on 3rd Ramadhan, 5 days post date and gave birth the next day to a baby girl who was all covered with thick meconium. Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah,  she was born well and healthy. I am not particularly sure this time around though. I don't think labour is imminent and my gut feeling says that this pregnancy will continue on to approach at least the expected date of delivery. In a way, I guess my boy is doing me a favour by allowing me to fast and having lesser days to qadha later on.

Both me and my gynae have come to an agreement to induce labour by EDD, which will be next Thursday. We definitely do not want a meconium baby again. Honestly, I don't mind going under the knife (or scalpel) for the 2nd time. Wallahualam.

Anyways, I am on medical leave until delivery, only God knows when it is. I normally wake up late due to sleepless nights. I plan on what to cook or bake for iftar and sahur; so far everything has been homecooked, Alhamdulillah.

Well, the month of Ramadhan is not only about fasting for 12 hours but also the month that teaches us to be patient, to improve our faith, to forgive, to appreciate what we have and to feel for the unfortunates. My Allah accept our ibadah, direct us to the right path and make us a better Muslim. Ameen,

My prayer also goes out to my sister and her husband who have to endure 20 hours of fasting. I am sure it is not easy for them. May Allah grant them patience and perseverance in going through this month.

Have a blessed Ramadhan everyone.

Fashion sense and trend

This lady is really giving me a lot of headache.. fashion wise that is.

I cannot dictate what she needs to wear for the day. She'll say no to all the girly pinky clothes, na-ah to dresses and tak nak to the cute shoes. An argument or a bargain on what to wear every day is a common thing. Pening I tell you! 

Her latest obsession now is her yellow aeroplane t-shirt which she picked up herself when we entered Poney paired with shorts and Nike sports shoes. What I noticed is that she still loves to wear her whimsigirl baju kurung to the mosque and fancy dresses to events. Should I be thankful that she is somehow retained some of her feminine side?

She is one happy girl in this attire

I am hoping that her boyish choices is not a permanent thing.

Struggled to get her into this!

Counting days

My baby has finally reaches term, that is 37 completed weeks. Yes, he is now ready to come out and see the world!! Dr Idora said that the head is already in place which means that I should anticipate to experience contraction, show or my water break anytime now. ( tapi tolong lah jangan banjir in my own clinic in front of the patient, that will be so memalukan okeh!)

Alhamdulillah he is not as heavy as his big sister with estimated weight of 3kg. So hopefully it will be easier for me to push.. right? Did I tell you that I am scared to bits as this will be my first time trying for vaginal delivery. My gut feeling says that these 2 siblings are very much alike and will wait till the very last before coming out to see me. 

I am at my wits end already. Back pain and leg cramps are my constant complains. Luckily, I do not have any new stretch mark or swollen ankle. For that, I am grateful. 

I am now spending my day time at work until the expected date of delivery though my gynae did offer for an earlier medical leave. Yup, I so much contemplate to take up that offer if this son of mine still decided to stay in her mama's womb by next week.