Day 15: Sad & Sorrow

It has not been a good day for me and my friend. We practised history taking with our supervisor on JIA and CF. Boy, I did badly! The history taking part wasn't that bad but when it came to the discussion part, I was left clueless. The questions were more detail than I expected. So I was upset with my performance and embarrassed at the same time. 

The supervisor was nice and advised us to read more. He even emailed me the latest guidelines on the topics above. That was very kind of him to do that. 

I am more determine to study harder and push myself further. I know I can do it, I just need to focus and study smart. Kena banyak berdu'a moga dipermudahkan as I know, only He can help me at this point in time.

Shhh..

Baik tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, abang, kakak dan adik. Sila perlahankan suara ya, as I am currently in study mode. Exam bulan September dan saya kena korek poket dan dompet, cari duit sen-sen yang bersepah-sepah untuk cukupkan RM2.5k sebagai yuran peperiksaan tu. Kalau tak pass, duit tu kira burn je dan omputeh kat UK tu sedap-sedap je dapat makan duit yuran yang kita bayar dengan titik peluh sendiri.


Saya tak mampu fail lagi sebab kena cepat-cepat ambik clinical exam agar dapat menjadi specialist segera. Duit gaji sebagai MO cikai ni hanya cukup untuk hidup berserderhana, tak dapat nak bermewah-mewahan. Selain itu, saya dah berjanji dengan diri sendiri yang jikalau saya lulus exam kali ini, saya dapat membeli handabg Longchamp yang dah lama saya idamkan.


Okay ya, makcik pakcik sekelian. Sila beri kerjasama ya... Senyap semua sebab saya tengah beri tumpuan sepenuhnya terhadap buku depan mata  bertajuk Paediatric Exams, A Survival Guide oleh Encik Paul Gaon.


Harap maklum... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

I'm choked!

Have you ever feel suffocated and choked by the things around you that makes it difficult to even breath? That's exactly how I felt after I sat for my exam!


It was terrible beyond words. I wasn't sure why it was too overwhelming? Was it because that all 120 questions were easy but the answers were difficult and tricky... or the fact that the whole exam took almost 6 hours that my butt turned numb and my back ached like crazy!


All in all, I can just sum up that I'm mentally and physically exhausted that I desperately need comfort food and sugary sweets to distract me and make me feel good....

I'm stressed.. stressed.. stressed!

Itu je nak bagitau..

I wish..

I can enjoy my cuppa with a good novel instead of this book.. sigh..

See you in 2 weeks!

Gosh, I am really stressed up as my exam is just around the corner. Itu la, sape suruh study last minute??!. Now I am suffering and on the verge of a nervous breakdown!


Wish me luck and please pray for my success.


You won't be seeing me blogging until after 12th of April. And if you do, feel free to shout "Oit Maryam, study la" :p


Adios bebeh.

Apa yang di baca hari ini..

Causes of rickets include:

1) Renal tubular acidosis

2) Cystic fibrosis

(much hated topics but favourite exam question)

Other related topics:

1) Pseudohypoparathyroidism

2) William syndrome

I wanted to read more but I was too drowsy to continue.