Monday, November 21, 2011

I need to focus.. seriously!

Assalamualaikum everyone.. 

Sorry for not updating this blog for a very long time. I've been wanting to write something for ages but instead, I felt guilty. 

I've passed my exam recently, MRCPCH Part 2A , and for that, syukur Alhamdulillah yang tak terhingga. The first feeling that I had after discovering the result was totally opposite of euphoria. I was anxious and scared instead for what awaits me next, the clinical exam which will be much3 tougher mentally, physically and knowledge wise. I can't afford to waste any more time in front of the telly or PC as I should be spending my time studying for my exam. 

My UIA senior, a young enthusiastic pediatrician told me that I need to spend at least 1 year ahead to prepare as MRCPCH 2B is a totally different game. It is definitely not easy and there is no such thing as luck. No more relaxing weekends, no more sleep during postcall hours, no more lepaking as I will only have one precious opportunity to pass. Mind you,  I have to spend RM15k for the exam which will take place in UK and I can't afford to waste more money should I fail.

At the same, I'm thinking of an addition to our family. My adorable little girl Hana is reaching 15 months and I think it's about time that she share her toys and books with her sibling (plus I am not getting any younger!). Family planning has to wait until after I pass my exam coz I really cannot take any further distraction. I feel bad enough for not spending enough quality time with my girl and her papa dan I tak sanggup nak rasa serba salah to another human being should I bear another child at this moment in time. Babies will require a lot of attention, what with breast feeding, not enough sleep etc...

So my friend, I'll be closing down this blog temporarily for all the above reasons. I'll try to update once in a while if I have the time. Till then, please2 pray for my success of becoming a pediatrician. See ya and may Allah bless you..